Kind of like a rant with a question at the end.

I guess ever since I discovered trp I've been disconnecting emotionally from everything. Everything except my best friends really...

I had this girl from the past (i had a lot of feelings for this girl in the past) show up in my life and I went 100% stupid (in my opinion) and just kinda let all my guard down and told her what i feel. we hooked up, it was a nice night, I actually felt something...

literally the day after my emotional burst I stopped having any type of emotional feelings for her.

She was the last girl I had any type of feelings for. Now, I have zero feelings towards any woman besides fucking her.

I understand that feelings make you vulnerable but I think to live a happy life, you need a meaningful connection with a woman (or correct me if im wrong, im only 20 what the fuck do i know).

So how do I feel again? Is it necessary? Does wanting a meaningful connection a weakness? How do I not feel empty?...

I guess a good piece of information would be how much and how many women do I fuck. I fuck as much as I can based on my schedule with different women (zero feelings all the time).