What's the point in self-improvement? I don't fucking care if I am able to do this or that. I just want to have a girlfriend. Please spare me with 'Go lift!', I tried it and it sucks. Don't tell me to develop a IDGAF mindset, or shitty abundance mentality, it won't help me. I feel incomplete. I give a fuck. I don't want to be alone anymore. Don't tell me, to go somewhere I enjoy going to, to meet women, because the last time I peaked around the corner, there was no woman in my living room. Don't tell me to get male friends. Hearing some advice from men is helpful, but most of the time, men are annoying. I don't care what they achieve in their jobs. I don't care about their dumbass sports. I don't care about who they banged or anything about them in general. I just want a girl to be alone with together. Yes, I am negative. Life is a sprint race, you have to run with both legs tied together as you are evading others throwing chainsaws at you, just for shit and giggles. A woman to call my mate, partner and best friend is the only goal I have, and the only one I have hope for, in this world made of piled up shit and blind people believeing the world is good and exciting.