This is probably the biggest thing that I do not know how to really correct. I've always imagined if I was a little bit shorter or even a white man then my personality wouldn't be seen as weird but I was born in this big black body so all of my traits got me made fun of because I was "too big to like that" or "too white "sound white"

I took me years to finally have the confidence just to be me But trying to translate all of this into dating is harder still just because I've thrown so many women off and I have no idea what to do anymore

There is no mathematical formula in Social stuff and I would wager that, socializing for humans isn't supposed to be so formulaic as it's the thing that binds us together and we're so different but we also adhere to a lot of common rules even if they aren't stated but it's kind of hard to do because I've always felt like I had to choose between two different paths being a big black man but being something completely opposite of the stereotype

I've never been into mainstream things like sports but I do enjoy music but even still I am so off base from the norm

To this day I don't know whether to be proud or not and to this day I still don't know how to connect to the right woman

Racial fetishization is a thing and sometimes that can work to your favor but other times it makes me want to vomit