Hey so I noticed that partying and going to bars is really getting old and boring after trying it for 2 years.

Mistakes i made in 2024

I noticed I get anxious, sweaty and nervous so i start to sweat and i still smell even after i applied deodorant and cologne

My job I ruined my reputation and i am being talked about poorly and it caused me to have a mental breakdown because I opened up and trusted the wrong people and when we get into arguments or every now and then. They constantly throw and insult me about my tricking addiction and the fact i have nothing and these same people call me their friend but i feel i am treated poorly and constantly feel put down by them

I partied too much and I didn’t enjoy it really and i did it so much that in my state people started to gossip about me saying they seen me places and thought i was crazy

I became addicted to porn and tricking and it taken a toll on my confidence and self esteem.

My diet is poor, i am 5’7 and chubby at age 31 and i have premature grays that i are increasing more and more unnoticeable due to me being isolated lonely and sexless for a long time while living with my mon who also is doing poorly and she verbally abuse(she can be very mean and disrespectful in how she acts towards me and just way too hard on me) and it made me super sensitive.

What can i do differently this year that can help me become more Confident to the point people have no choice but to respect the work i put on myself, i can talk to anyone anywhere without being awkward or anxious and not giving af about what other think and just have a good social circle and a good dating life