This FR is more for me then anyone else. I need to write about the somewhat failure that was tonight. For all the success I have had, I managed to fall back into bad habits. I'm frustrated but also encouraged. There was plenty of IOIs given by the woman and I recognized them, I just became to scared to act.

My last FR I wrote about two examples. In the second example I wrote about a woman I met through a mutual friend and the attraction I built without words, just using physical contact.

I was with the same group of friends tonight. When she saw me today, for the second time ever, we immediately made eye contact and I saw a slight smile appear across her face. There are four of us outside eating and talking but I feel most of her attention is focused on me. I make eye contact with her on multiple occasions as we are talking and she just gives me this look, the best I can describe it. After lunch our mutual friend and my woman of interest go off shopping. I am invited but decline. I planned on going to the gym around three and was not about to go shopping instead.

After lifting I check my phone and have a text from my friend inviting me to dinner. I show up at dinner and it is lunch all over again but our group is now eight. She spends most of the time talking to me and I feel her focus is centered on me. At this point I have realized no physical contact was attempted on my part. Honestly, there really was no opportunity to do so. We were in a group setting and I did not find a way to make it happen. Failure one. I make an excuse for the lack of kino and then accept my excuse.

Dinner concludes and we head back to the mutual friend's apartment. On the drive over I can only think about this woman. I would not go so far as to call it oneitis but I could feel the affects coming on. I then begin to worry that the subtle IOIs I am getting from this girl are just figments of my imagination. I tell myself, "not every girl that gives you a 'look' is attracted to you." Very negative at this point. I then counter," I could feel something, the look she was giving was different, special." Failure two. I am becoming obsessed. I'm reaching the point where if I fail with this woman I will not take it well or in stride.

The group that I rode with to the apartment arrives before the group with my woman of interest. I develop a test. I sit on the edge of the couch to see if she will sit next to me. Sure enough she does. We start talking as a group. I can feel her next to me. Her leg very close to mine. We are in plain view of everyone else so I do not initiate any contact. I make some sarcastic jokes and she laughs. I say something more sarcastic and she hits me on my thigh. She then remarks on my skinny jeans and how they fit, snuggly. I tell her, "the jeans are not tight, their form fitting."

She then touches my arm and tells me, "your arms are hard, they do not move."

I laugh and say, "weird, right? I have been trying to figure that one out."

She laughs in response and says sarcastically, "you are so modest."

For the next twenty minutes we make sporadic and quick physical contact. Nothing obvious that can be picked up by the rest of the group. At this point I realize she is attracted but the group of people we are with, the reason we met in the first place, is a problem and a block to further escalation.

The group now heads off to a restaurant to get drinks. I sit down first at the table to see where my woman decides to sit. Sure enough, right next to me. With a table covering our legs she becomes a little more bold, I can feel her push her leg up against mine. I respond by applying some pressure against her. Neither of us make any indication of what we are doing, the group of friends are now all around us. One of my guy friends tells me I need to teach my roommate how to talk to women. Immediately my women of interest asks, "Oh, so you are good at talking with women?"

I respond, "I am good at communicating with women. I prefer to 'talk' with women without the use of words."

She replies, "So, you talk with body language."

"I prefer to communicate with the silent coercion from body language and touch, it speaks volumes." At this point I feel her push up against me closer.

Unexpectedly she says, "I'm sorry, am I getting to close to you?"

Shit test (?) I retort, "No, it was inevitable." She laughs.

Now I know that the IOIs she was giving earlier were not my imagination. I do not know how I'm going to isolate her. To further drive me crazy she touches me one more time, this one quite overt. I do not remember the exact specifics but I mention the shirt I am wearing is my favorite. She says, "that is because it shows off your chest." While saying this she places her hand on my chest and gives it a squeeze. Woah. I notice that my friend saw this exchange.

Not to soon after the group splits and she goes back to our mutual friends apartment where she is staying. I'm left sitting there thinking to myself, "Damn." Failure three. I never found a way to isolate. Perhaps it was impossible but I let her walk away.

After arriving back home I am frustrated and disappointed though not completely upset, I have not forgotten her compliments. My friend then calls me to basically ask me if I realized how much she was hitting on me. I respond, "I had an inkling."

He laughs, "Her grabbing your chest is some inkling."

I felt better after that. At least someone else noticed her IOIs beside me.

I needed to write this. I was angry with myself from not doing anything. The group setting made it difficult and I became afraid of failure so I sat on my hands and did nothing. Perhaps I will see her again, hopefully in a more conducive setting.