I have a real hard on for femdom/cuckold/feminization stuff. What should I do? I thought of trying to repress it, but the first thing that comes to mind is gay guys, that never come out, aren't their life miserable?

I act irl pretty normal, I am no alpha of course, I can get some girls (only drunk, and pretty rare). I hadn't had a lot of sex, but I had never ever come from the piv sex itself. The only time I even came at all with women was a drunk threesome at a party, where they tied up my hands, and one girl was jerking me off while fingering my ass, while the other was basically facefucking me.

Sorry for kinda hectic style, it's that my mind is pretty fucked up right now.