Been in A LTR for a 1.5 years. I live with her and her family and things are decent. I noticed she wasn't attracted to me like she used to be. So recently I have begun to get back at everything I used to be. (Recovering from getting way way way to comfortable with SO and letting myself go). Thank your TRP for opening my eyes and not listening to her when she says " I love you no matter what you look like or do " = AKA BULL FUCKING GRADE A SHIT.

The way I noticed is she stopped bjs. ( she used to suck and swallow like a goddess in the start of our relationship) sex is a lot less sexy and feels like she is doing a chore for me. her excuse for bjs now is " I don't feel like it " or " I don't like it ". Over all I can feel she is not attracted to me as she once was...

Whatever I'm working on myself now. I never had a job when we met but got one like 3 months ago and ended up leaving. It was awful and not worth the pay I put all the money into my savings except for living expenses ( Very minimal). Plus, I had some abuse going on there that is a whole story on its own. Anyways since I got so giddy with my gf and not doing shit I lost a lot of friends. I have no real hobbies or passions. This is my next task at hand on my TRP adventure to become better. It frustrates me how everyone has their "thing" , ME? I don't find anything that interesting to devote time into. I've tried to force myself to try a couple but they just don't work out and don't seem to feel like me. I am 19, I have no idea what I want to do with my life and it pisses me off and scares me.

How can I get more friend or some friends back?

How can I find my true passion or a hobby that I will enjoy and master?

How do I find out what the fuck to do with my life?

Thank you all for reading and any advice is awesome!