I just found out my very religious fiance who I was planning on marrying.slept with my own cousin. There was so many red flags I ignored. And the fact that she is pregnant makes this so hard.

I cant go no contact but I plan on moving to different state as of Saturday and only communicate with her about the baby. And I plan on getting a paternity test I am not signing anything until I do that. And after the baby is born if it's mine I will raise and be there for the baby but I just can't feel anything at the moment.

I really feel numb my cousin was like my gym buddy. My best friend and the only person I could talk to everything about. His betrayal hurts more than her.

I looked for a good girl virgin from good family and religious. She was all that but she had very low self steam and I ignored many more red flags for example been addicted to social media etc I can't write all of it right now.

Please trust your gut feeling and Dont be like me thank god she is just a finance and I didn't marry her but if the baby is mine I will be a good father. The fact that I can't just blocked her and go no contact for life is killing me.