It's the end now and if I took the time to write everything that has went on you would be here for a few days reading and saying to yourself. Why didn't you leave her sorry ass sooner boy!!!

She has isolated me from my family, I have no friends because she made sure to torpedo EVERY friendship I have ever had or even TRIED to have. She would be a total cunt to everyone or start arguments with me while people were around to make them not want to come back over or go out. If she didn't get her way she would have a total meltdown and throw fits until I would cave and let her have her way. So it got to the point I would just let the bitch have her way just so I didn't have to deal with her bullshit.

Well this past year I kicked a 20 year heroin/pain pill habit and got sober. I also let go of something I had held inside since I was 6. I had been raped and molested from the age of 6 to the age of 9. I couldn't keep it inside anymore, the drugs helped keep me numb to it and without them it was going to consume me if I didn't talk to someone. Well I thought her being my wife, despite her never being there when I really needed her to be, this time would be different. HAHAHA what a dumb ass I was. Yea she has done nothing to help me cope with it but start MORE shit with what little family I had left so.

But it opened my eyes to the person she REALLY is. She always plays the victim, stirs shit up and then acts like she did nothing wrong and is the person being wronged, CONSTANTLY goes through my phone, which I no longer have because she is the only one allowed to have a working phone, emails, Facebook, messenger, anything I do on my phone this bitch goes through.

She has even pretended to be ME when I have reached out to people and told them what is going on and how unhappy I am and wanting to leave. She will then go behind me while I am sleeping and message them saying to ignore that last.message I was in a bad mood or high that I love her more then anyone I ever have, she is the most important thing to me, I treat her horribly and feel bad for doing so etc. And understandably people don't wanna be in the middle of shit like that. So here I am, no family, no friends, no where to get away from this crazy fuckin bitch, I try to contact lawyers to get the process started for separation or to see what my options are because she CONSTANTLY hacks my emails, Facebook, whatever I use she somehow is able to get into and at times changes the fucking password and then acts like she had nothing to do with it and will stand there and lie right to my face even when I am able to show her the time and date she did it.

I found tracking software on my phone that she installed. One night I was forced to use her phone because mine was broke something popped up on notifications from a lawyer I had contacted on a web browser I had never heard of opened it up abd found she had used this Microsoft browser signed into MY Google account and was tracking EVERY fuckin website I had been to in the last couple of months. I have never laid a hand on this bitch but after all the bullshit she has pulled and then blatantly denying It and lying right to my face WITH proof I would love nothing more then her to be a man for just 10 minutes. I just want to walk away and never have to deal with this crazy bitch ever again. I let all this happen because I thought that's what a man does, keeps shit together for the sake of his family.

Don't be that dumb ass. Don't be me. Leave that cunt as soon as you have the feeling it is done because if not you are in for a world of shit.