I’ve been in 2 relationships prior to this with NVM/LVM. One was a total narcissist who love bombed me, would ask me to be his girlfriend but then change his mind (did the same thing with “I love you”), discarded me & then multiple times roped me back in to use me for sex or emotional support, only to go cold and dump me again. At least this was a short period of time tho.

Got into another relationship with who I believe to be a covert narcissist, maybe even a sociopath. From the beginning of our relationship he was dishonest and shady. Caught him talking to girls throughout our relationship. Extremely emotionally abusive, the gaslighting was a daily thing. Just now coming to terms with the fact he sexually assaulted me too. It was horrible and I am damaged.

Anyways. Those occurred during my pick me era. I am not that bitch anymore and I never will be again. I have been seeing my current boyfriend since august and we have been exclusive the whole time. I allowed him to make me his official girlfriend a little over a month ago. He’s exhibited nothing but HV traits and continues to make me feel special on a daily basis. I’m treated like a princess.

Naturally, I’m weary, based on my past relationships. But post FDS, I feel like I can’t even trust this guy who has been incredible to me. I know that I’m never supposed to fully let my guard down, but I am constantly trying to find things wrong and it is making the experience a lot less enjoyable. I’m starting to feel like I’m toxic and I don’t know exactly what I’m asking but I guess I just need advice.