I am the beta of betas. The weakest and most submissive of the weakest and most submissive. If I was a wolf my pack would leave me in the woods to die.

I was a beta from the time I was born. Below is my resume, arranged chronologically. Each bullet point details an example of my betaness.

Age 8- Classmates make excuses for why they do not want to hang out with me. I have a memory burned into my head of this blond kid pretending to throw a coughing fit, and exclaiming that he was allergic to me, because my mother asked his mother if we could have a play date. Every time I think of that memory I shake uncontrollably for a few seconds.

Age 13- I go to my first high school party. A few cute girls from my high school arrive outside the apartment building exactly when I do. I nervously open the door to the party and in doing so, a metallic spoke cuts my hand so i only am able to open the door halfway, however it looks like I am not strong enough to open the door. The three girls mock me, flexing their biceps at me the entire party.

Age 16- I finally think I am starting to have "cool" friends. Really they were just using me for my huge Park Slope Apartment. I would always just get texts asking if the "squaaaad" could come over and it was just random people who i didn't know who would smoke weed and steal all the food from my fridge. They tried to reaffirm their status as my "friend" by saying slowly, in the same cadence a kindergarden teacher would use when reading aloud, "You are such a good friend (my name)!". Then they would proceed to blow weed smoke in my face and ignore me for the rest of the night.

Age 20- Finally get a girlfriend! What can go wrong! Right? My girlfriend guilted me into paying for 80 percent of her meals, and buying her various gifts. Eventually I get fed up with it. I refuse to buy her this bead bracelet but she whispers in my ear "I have something special planned for tonight", as she grabs my cock. So I pay for the bracelet. She tells me that night that we're going to have a foursome with this other couple she knows. I'm a little hesitant but excited. The couple comes to our dormroom. I am baffled by this couple. They show no synergy and the guy is a 9, toned, suave, chiseled, angular, and the girl is a 5, chubby with a huge nose. My (now ex) girlfriend spends the entire session getting mercilessly railed by this Alphamale, which is capped off by him cumming in her mouth, while I reluctantly eat out this girl who I have no interest in. I later find out my girlfriend just really wanted to fuck this guy so she pulled this whole "couple's sex night" thing out of her ass. The alpha's "girlfriend" wasn't his girlfriend at all. She was a friend of MY girlfriend, and they just pretended they didn't know each other. They guy had never met the his supposed girlfriend before that night. My girlfriend just asked her if she wanted to get "some dick" and she agreed.

I am a beta. Making fun of me will not help me. That's why I put the serious tag. I will do anything it takes to become Alpha. Just tell me. How do I become Alpha? What are the first steps? Where can I be a year from now? All jokes will be deleted.