My husband told me again that he feels no attraction to me and wants a divorce. This has been an ongoing issue that never seems to fully resolve, even when i think we’ve made it past it.. so, I guess I knew it was coming, but I still feel devastated by this.

I’m heartbroken and embarrassed and I just feel so lost. I believe in marriage and never even considered divorce an option. At the same time, a part of me is relieved in a way. It’s been so exhausting to constantly try to “fix” myself for someone who continuously reminds me that I’m not enough, to walk on egg shells all the time, to be constantly ridiculed by the person i love most, and I’m just... I’m so tired.

I would love any and all advice or hope that you want to share. I know this doesn’t entirely fit the theme of the subreddit but I feel like you all are some of the only people who will truly understand... most have a “screw them” mentality, and I never have. I’ve utilized so many teachings in this community trying to improve things. I may have failed at saving my marriage but I hope I can still use those teachings for myself...

I’d just love some hope. I feel so broken right now.

Context... I’m 27. We’re going to be living together for the next few months while I find other arrangements. No kids (thank god). I’m not currently working but I’m looking/applying. I have a lot of healing to do, because this relationship has left me with a lot of trauma to unpack...

Thank you for any words of wisdom and just for reading this far. 🥺