I'm not sure if this is even the right place to post this but I'm just going to give it a go. So basically I got my original post cross posted into the red pill from a relationship advice subreddit. I was kind of mad about it at first, in fact I was pissed but this is the internet so, so be it. I am 100% thankful that I found out about this sub. I have been doing nothing but reading threads and links from the side bar for the past few days. You know my whole life I've been a complete bitch when it comes to women. I've let them take full advantage of me, cheat on me, berate me, and I still gave them chances because I didn't know what the fuck I was doing. If there are people who say this is a horrible place and everything tossed around here is BS they are just lying to themselves. You can only sugar coat and fake things so long before you lose it and want answers. I want answers, that's why I'm here. I am 25 years old and I am so ruined that the thought of marriage is completely out of the question at this point. Fuck, I am even to the point where I just want to do my own thing and say fuck the whole relationship thing. I really plan on reading and taking in as much as I can while here. Thank you for opening my eyes.