Hey y'all! Happy Tuesday. I'm feeling very down and could use some help.

My fiancé and I worked a M-F job for most of our two year relationship, however I will be starting a new job where we have opposite schedules. He will still be working a high-ranking position in IT with a normal M-F 50 hours a week schedule. I'll be at a remote job with Mondays and Tuesdays off working from noon until 9:30 pm the rest of the week. I have my own interests and hobbies (photography, art, skincare) and he does alot of IT, hunting, animal related stuff. He's a vet who served in the Iraq war, while I was in school at the time. He's 7 years older than me.

I have anxious attachment although I've done a lot of work to get past that point. I had a severely neglectful childhood, was in foster care, and have no contact with my foster or birth family. In many ways, it made me scrappy and independent, but as far as relationships go I'm anxious. I was in an abusive marriage (annulled by the Catholic Church) for a good chunk of my 20's and "hit the jackpot" with my current fiancé. I'm an 8-10 depending on a guys preference, love to cook and bake, take exceptional care of my appearance, and can't wait to have children.

I try to keep my anxiety, but sometimes after my fiancé is working for 9 or 10 hours a day and I'm at a home (I live in the South and we're in a snowstorm so I'm off for two days), I'm super excited to see him. Tonight, I was off of work because of the storm and just had new hire things to do for my new job. I made dinner and we watched some TV, before he got up to go to bed. We have a very large 2 bedroom apartment and are waiting until marriage to sleep together, so we're basically in separate wings, which we both want because we're Christian. I have literally no family, my best friend lives 6 hours aware, so the only option was to move in together. But we are living as separate as possible until marriage and not doing anything physical and haven't for roughly 5 months... we messed up last fall and had sex. I calmly expressed I was sad that we weren't hanging out longer. He sternly, but kindly said he needs his space and needs time to himself which I 100% back him up on. Typically after I got home before my on site job we'd spend 2.5 or 3 hours together. Now, we won't have the same days off, until about 8 months when I can get more tenure and a new schedule.

TDLR How much time do you spend with your SO?