When I observe myself, I notice that I do not want people in my personal life.

  1. I want money, food, security, ways to build things. I don't need people to get them. I get them by myself.

  2. I want intimacy and sex. To get that, I need one girl. Not 2, or more. I want to share my personal life. By sharing my life, I don't mean talking.

When I observe my interactions with women I want as a whole (not just with my dick), I notice that they don't wear shorts, they don't have social media, they don't have slutty friends although I cannot know for sure. When I observe what I do with women I want, I try to make them fill the position. The position I described in point #2. I have no problem just cutting off when I figure out she is sluttier my limits. It turns me off. Sure I can stick my dick in for some minutes but I want none of it as a whole. I can use escorts or plates for sex.

I've read TRP posts guys mentioning after they fuck over 100 women, they quit dating out of disgust or emptiness. Some report they become unable to build bond with girls. So this is not just me who wants intimacy. TRP maximises the rate of sex per time after one builds himself. I don't have problem not maximizing it, as long as I don't get a bad deal. I understand the downsides of what I want but it is what I want. I don't think I can find what I'm looking for in a society where being a slut is the mainstream but I still hope that I can find someone. I'm not gonna ask you how to find a girl like that because you probably don't know or care, since you are here. Instead, I'm gonna ask this. Do you know any guys who are like me (the same attitude towards people and relationships) who are having a good life?