Mission: To build myself into a man capable of standing strong and defending/promoting his faith, building a business and wealth and using these resources to make disciples through my family and put these resources to use in influencing public policy, culture, etc.
Stats: M, 24, ~16% BF, 165 lbs, Gym 4x weekly consisting of strength training, living in the Midwestern US, College educated (graduate program)
Spiritual: Daily Scripture reading, Mass on Sundays, Weekly Confession as of about a month, daily prayer and consideration of how I can further God's will in my life. Spiritual maturity probably a 6/10 overall. Long way to go in my walk.
For some reason, I'm having an existential crisis today. I've been doing better than ever in my walk over the past few months since rediscovering my Faith in the past year, and feel a renewed vigor to follow in Christ's footsteps.
Unfortunately, I'm having my first crisis of faith in a little while right now.
Does anyone else ever worry they're just trying to compensate for their lack of ability to "fit in" and "be good at getting girls", and that's why they pursue Christianity/RPChristians as a method of distraction as opposed to "secular ways" of doing things like dating and life in general?
The thing that gives me the biggest pause is my concern that the only reason I'm pursuing any spiritual connection with God is because of a subconscious realization that I lack the coldness of secular people and their ability to detach actions from (imaginary or real) spiritual consequences, especially in regards to sex. I'm going to be completely honest, there are a lot of times where I feel so jealous of them, even though the Lord tells us not to envy the sinner.
Does anyone else ever worry that they're wrong/mistaken not to pursue the pleasures of this world, especially when it seems like everyone else does these things without thinking, and really enjoy (or seem to enjoy) them? I just feel "trapped" in my head so much of the time and like a societal outcast, since it feels like so many people go through life without any kind of serious spiritual deliberation and turn out "fine".
Thank you for your prayers in advance, I just feel so tired right now. I know God will give me strength, but I need an extra push in this time of doubting and spiritual vulnerability. Please give any advice you can give in this situation.
Edit: I want to thank you all for your thoughtful answers. I've had a chance to pray and think about the spiritual guidance offered, and am in a better place for now. Please pray for my continuing spiritual growth. Thank you.
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