I'm tired of having to be stoic. I'm tired of not being able to show emotion when you're going through it. Some people claim it's okay to let it out, but when you do they never look at you the same.

You're not looked at as a man anymore, they make you feel weak giving you condescending tones because you showed a moment of fragility, of being human.

Even posting this, I deleted multiple renditions of it because it's put in my head that nobody gives a shit because I'm a man and men need to suck it up and deal with it.

I'm at the lowest I've been and there is nobody to talk to about it, but I know if I was a woman people would flock to my aid immediately.

I know because I've been in my relationship for 14 years, with a son and all. I've watched anytime there's an argument, she has help. Everyone comes to do whatever they can and nobody has ever even asked how I was doing. I've noticed the same for all the other men I know as well. Nobody gives a fuck if they're going through it.

I'm sick of men not getting help. I'm sick of men killing themselves because they feel like they have no options, knowing it could have been avoided if they could just genuinely open up. I'm sick of having to shoulder all the responsibility and blame while the world mocks and laughs at us.

How the fuck does anyone cope with depression when even the people you'd think would care the most, don't care at all?