Well.. I'm dropping the paperwork off at the lawyers office tomorrow. She's the one that wanted this. I've tried so many times for my family to work. But after this being the 4th separation.. I just don't know. It sucks to have married someone who was just so hard to work with. But I'm filing this time. I just need the strength to follow through. It's hard to see her everyday at work already moved on. Just so happy that I'm out of her life when all I did was try. Please wish me luck. I need to do this. It was toxic, I know it was. To be treated the way I was is wrong.. I know love is blind but I still don't hate her for her choices. So much bullcrap I've live through with her. My life is forever tarnished because she is so good at faking it. I've never had the strength to stand up for myself. Maybe this time. Maybe..