I'm trying my hardest to do this one day at a time. But it just sucks. Seems like there is always something that comes up. Have to see her every day at work, and I can't stand it. Sometimes, I feel so angry, and other times, it hurts with that same pain again. I lm really trying to stay strong, but idk anymore. Everything happened so fast. 2 months have gone by, and I'm still hurting. How long does it have to last.. we both got divorce lawyers, and I know for a fact it's done. I need to be done. 4 times of this crap. Just need to be over it, but I can't find the strength. She's already happier than hell and here I am still loathing every minute of it. Why can't I be like that.. or even be able to fake it, at least. This just sucks. I'm trying to find a place to live cause I got kicked out of our house. Can't even get any of my shit out of the house. Motorcycle and everything. Only got a bag of clothes she threw out at me. Then, I filed a bullshit protection order to keep me out. The lawyer thinks it's crap just to make the divorce more in her favor. All of this is bullcrap. Kids don't know what to do. My moms been watching them constantly cause I don't even have a place to live. Luckily, she borrowed me a car. Otherwise, I would be out of a job. I've been on friends couches for this whole time now. Idk anymore..