Spent 13 years chasing my wife.. multiple separations. In and out of court. I can't believe how much time I've put in to this. And here we are again splitting up again for the 4th time. She said she was tired of me again. I got conformable and lost her. I just can't believe it. I worked so hard to get my credit up to get the house she wanted. I tried so hard to get everything we needed. And nothing maddered. 3 weeks now and I'm still in shock. I thought we finally made it. Our two kids have had to deal with this so many times. I just couldn't get over being cheated on 3 times by her.. I mean I didn't throw it in her face but by the way I acted she could tell I was still insecure. It still hurts all the same.. like every other time she left. This beautiful women.. the mother of my children. I'm still in shock on how fast she turns the page every time. Makes me out to be a monster when ill I've done is try.. there's only so much one can handle. I've even had to fight for her affection with another man when she was pregnant with our second child. In my heart I feel like she's my soul mate but I keep fucking it up..13 years I've chased her and in that time I've always waited for her to come back. Never even slept with another women in that time. I'm at a loss. Don't know what to do since we work at the same place.. I have to see her everyday acting like losing me was the best thing she's ever done. I cooked and cleaned and tried so hard. But it wasn't enough.. what is wrong with me. There's got to be something wrong with me.