I do have friends I love, but I don't believe they can support me well enough because of my OCD and philosophy. I need a deep spiritual friend who can understand me and listen. I am tired of wasting my time on Reddit debating sex-positive liberals. I wish I had this one friend, and I think all my problems will get resolved. I aspire to become like them, I have always wanted to be a compassionate and empathetic saint/monk one day. But being stuck in my hatred and anger has ruined my goals. I am just too obsessed with debating because I want to invalidate my pessimistic fears, but it only gets validated by the liberals here. I need someone like me.