When I was in my first year of middle school I ended up in a very problematic class with lots of older kids who had fallen behind year after year. There was constant bullying from the older kids because I was socially awkward and "weird". But that's not what this post is about.

There was a 14 year old girl in my class who at one point started sitting next to me in class and putting her hand down my pants constantly and by force despite me telling her no. When I switched seats she came after me and kept harassing and assaulting me. The teachers all saw but nobody cared.

She would grope me during recess and one time grope me so hard while I was leaning forward shuffling through my bag that I fell. Her cousin, who was a lovely angel of a person, saw and came to me asking if I was ok and told me she was going to talk to her and tell her to stop. But it didn't change anything.

One day she got her friends together and had them grab my arms and hold me so she could kiss me by force. I luckily could break free and ran away crying. I wanted my first kiss to be special and felt like something extremely valuable and special was being taken away from me.

I told my dad what was happening and he made fun of me, saying I was a pussy for crying and being scared that a girl was interested in me. He said I should like it.

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I was forced to go through that abuse alone.

The abuse only stopped when the year ended. The following year she was not present and I don't know what happened to her since. It's like she completely disappeared.

The worst part is I'm 100% sure she was not attracted to me. I was the weird kid nobody looked at and that the other girls ignored. She didn't want to date or love me. She just knew doing those things would make my life hell. It was not about sexual desire. She enjoyed seeing me suffer.

Luckily I wasn't traumatised for live after the event and rarely think about it now. It just makes my blood boil when I realize the gravity of the situation now, as an adult, and the fact it was completely ignored and even ridiculed because I was a boy. If the roles had been reversed I would have been beaten or even killed by her parents or friends and there would be massive nation wide outrage.