There was a time recently where I was really bad and had no support from anyone, I was desparate for someones help and just plain advice that would help me pick myself up, I wanted to commit sui$ide and literally anyone I messaged or asked for help seemed so unbothered to try and help me which only motivated me more to do it. I don't understand, what has this society become? Are women just on top of everything right now? Because I think if I was a girl the case wouldn't be the same, I think I wouldn't even come to these bad thoughts, I think women just have more support overall and sometimes just because of that fact I wish I was a woman, just because I know there might have been hope for me and might have been someone that cares for me and helps me guide me through these tough parts of my life. Women just seem more healthy and like they can stick to each other and help each other, I don't know anymore, I am confused with this world and I don't know if it is worth it trying to go with life any further I don't think I can provide anything worthy to this world anyways, I just suck probably. Sorry for venting here but honestly this helps just a bit.