I met this girl on twitter back in the beginning of summer last year. we ended up going to an amusement park as our first "date". after the trip I basically got ghosted (she said later on that the reason was because she didn't really know me that well and was new to twitter as a whole). She ended up getting a bf a couple weeks after our "date" and ended up breaking up with him around december. She started subtly trying to talk to me again with story swipe ups, etc. I took the hint and hit her up again, this time she was way more receptive to me and we hit it off way better than the first time..(I guess she realized what she was missing out on or she was just bored?)

We started texting everyday n started to get close and one day she asked why I haven't taken her out on a date yet. In my head, my only goal was to have sex with her because I didn't like how she ghosted me months before. She was so receptive to me at this point, texting good mornings, talking all day it kind've weirded me out because where was any of this before?

I ended up taking her out to eat but before I went to get her she texted me that her friend is over because she got into a fight with her mom so we can't watch anything after the date at her place. (which was most likely a lie) I responded "it's no problem." I picked her up with flowers, we vibed to music on the way to the restaurant and the date went extremely well and we ended the night with a make out session.

Over the next week or two we got even closer and she asked me when I was going to see her again before she moved 3 hours away. We picked a date and ended up hanging out at her place.

At her house we were making out for hours, fingering etc we even talked for hours about life and things while she sat on top of me and were just all over each other. One thing led to another and when it was time, she told me under her breath that she didn't want to have sex. I said okay and asked her reasoning and she said it was because she was moving soon and didn't want us to do it and never see each other again or speak again. I did ask a couple more times after while I was kissing on her if she was sure because she mentioned she was horny but nothing ended up happening that night i kissed her bye n gave her a huge hug & i left without my initial goal.

Over that period of when we got close, to when we hung out for the last time, my feelings started to change from wanting to only have sex with her to okay maybe I can make her my girlfriend. The fact we did not have sex that night, kind of rubbed me the wrong way but not as much as it probably would for a regular girl because I actually ended up liking her for her. So i tried to put it in the past.

A couple days and weeks later, she moves. We're still talking everyday, but in my head im starting to have doubts about us because i have major trust issues and don't think i would be able to deal with the distance. I also questioned to myself countless times if she really liked me because her not wanting to have sex with me.

I dont say anything, until she brings up her birthday. her birthday was about 4 weeks after all of this happened and she mentioned she wanted to go on a cruise. she didn't ask me directly to go with her on it but I already counted myself out while we were discussing it because I had a feeling she wanted to ask. She got mad at me for counting myself out, reasonings being that I was in school (shes not) and work and cant just take a week off to go on a random cruise with a girl who's not even my gf yet. How would i even explain that to my parents. she said she understood but was she was being passive aggressive and annoyed the rest of the day. Later that night i told some friends (2 girls 1 guy) about the situation and we all collectively came to an agreement that it would probably be in my best interest to end things now with her since I'd still be in school for a couple more years and if she wasn't able to understand that I wouldn't be able to do things like this spontaneously than maybe she wasn't for me.

I texted her the next morning telling her I wanted to end things and she apologized for how she was acting. I didn't respond to her message because I had nothing else to say. Later on, she ended up blocking me on everything that night and thats when shit start to hit the fan because I wasn't expecting her to take it as I was dropping her or being disrespectful but just saying we couldn't work out AT THE MOMENT. But she took it completely the wrong way and even said that I hurt her with what i said in my paragraph and the way I ended things so quickly. Over the course of the next 3 weeks i was trying everything in my power to get her back including texting her friends but she wouldn't budge and didn't want to get back together. I guess she was actually hurt and started to get over me. She didn't want me to make the 3 hour drive to see her and fix things, she just wasn't interested. We texted about the situation and I tried to explain that I wasn't trying to hurt her but nothing worked we even got on the phone later that night. we were talking after i explained the situation but the days after it went back to being dry.

after some of our talks on the phone of me trying to get her back, she told me she was still going on the cruise and i asked with who and she said her cousin (a female). Fast forward a couple days to the cruise, at this point im on delivered and couldn't be bothered to text her again if she didnt want to talk. I tried to start my healing process of getting over her. The going with her cousing part, ended up being a lie and she ended up going with another grown ass guy. Idk the dude and idk where he's from but I do know that 1. she lied about who she was going with. 2. she was probably talking to this guy at the same time as me which is why she trusted him enough to go in the cruise with her or she just is using him as payback against me or something but she seems head over heels for him and 3. that they had sex.. because she brags about it on her spam account that my friend follows.

My question is, why do you think she was so quick to give it up to this new guy instead of me? was there anything you read that threw you off? or could've it simply just been he had it better than me? I feel like I got played because I feel like she stringed me along and ended up making me fall in love, with no intention of becoming anything real with me. I feel like if she did see a future with me she wouldn't be so quick to give up on us due to that little mistake i made. Her reasoning of not wanting to have sex with me was because we had only hung out physically 2-3x at that point even tho we talked on the phone everyday and she didn't know when she would see me again, but if she wasn't talking to this guy while she was talking to me it would've only been like a 2-3 window for them to meet, and she ended up taking him on the cruise and having sex with him?

I just don't get it. Yeah the sex part messes with my head but I just think the whole situation was fucked. I made a mistake and tried my hardest to fix it with her. Why was she so quick not to reconcile things? Why was she done so fast? She's on the verge of getting into a relationship with this guy based on her tweets and obviously I'm passed the point of trying to get her back but I just can't wrap my head around the whole situation and it's preventing me from moving on. How should I do this differently in the future?

ask questions if needed i tried my hardest to cut some parts of the story up