It was a struggle for me. it's been an extremely hard journey. At my worst (because i figured i was too ugly to get laid anyway), i was getting stoned and jerking off to porn probably 4 days out of the week, then once i was off that i was jerking off on chaturbate for awhile (and paying, i am not proud to say). then there was a moment of epiphany where i realized i had already been with a couple girls, girls IRL had given me some IOIs, and i felt heartless and like a complete loser, and now a loser with a receding hairline, a saggy belly, and stubble. aka, my youth is fading. my brain and inner voice of self pity wanted to ask why i keep doing this to myself, but deep down i think being a man is being able to say you did what you did because you wanted to. it's just, whether you want to be that kind of person. i realized i was looking for love or companionship at least to go with sex, and i kinda felt idiotic and selfish about my old mindset.
you kinda either make a choice to present yourself as a man and be in player mode, or you don't and you just waste time and kill brain cells. as i learned the hard way
that said, delayed puberty is a hell of a fucking beast lol. now that that is calming down the sex should start to come in as long as i work hard on myself
anyone else have recovery or redemption stories?
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