I know I sound regressive and sexist so yell at me all you want. I just feel that I should have my first time with a virgin. I feel that you will remember your first time and your first partner/SO, no matter how old you get. Even if the experience isn't good, at least you learn from it.

Also, you remember your first time for everything but not your second time. You remember your first time playing Mario Kart or trying weed or even your first trip to NYC. But not your second time.

A non-virgin to me sounds like a used car. Not just that, but she will compare you to her ex(s).

What can I do to get over this? I acknowledge that I need help.