I’m really struggling. Lately, it’s been rough.

The past few months have been my best. I’ve made a lot of money and learned a lot. I’ve started new habits, and set goals. Everything has improved.

But I’ve come to the dreaded time of the year when everything goes to shit. I’m starting to feel the call of the void, and I feel myself slipping.

Let me itemize the list of shit happening:

I have few close friends, and many of them are off at college. This isn’t a big one, but plays into my other worries.

I fear I have intimacy issues. I can’t get close to anyone, so I’ve been very dry in the sex category lately. I find it difficult to get close to my guy friends now.

I can’t control my eating. Every time I try, I just can’t. It’s fucking hard. I can workout everyday, I can go to school on time, I can take up other activities, but I just can’t control it. And it’s my biggest problem.

I can’t control any daily habits outside of working out. I’ve tried to set my sleep schedule, diet, and other small things, but I can’t find it in me to finish what I’ve started.

I have no goals. I’m at a point in my life where I just go to college Monday through Thursday and sometimes hang out with friends on the weekend. I get my work done and then have 3 whole days to do jack shit.

I waste too much time. I find myself routinely playing too many video games, masterbating, and just doing anything but productive shit to fill my time.

I need help, brothers. I’m spiraling and I don’t know what to do. I find my depression coming back and all of the bullshit that comes with it. Any advice is appreciated.