Little background: I went out with this girl who I recently friendzoned or so I thought.

Anyways, I go with her to this dance party and it's becoming painfully obvious how much my confidence is just shattered around her, and for some god awful reason I get jealous when she's flirting with another guy (who she had previously rejected months ago).

There's Only One Thing To Do... GFTOW

I'm not going to lie... it stung hard. I wish I could say I truly friendzoned her, but I guess I didn't. I saw her kiss him, and she does the hot-cold bullshit she did with me to him too. I'd try to dance with her and she'd ignore me for this other guy (who was much more assertive than me with this girl... every other girl I am more so just to give an idea how bad my confidence is with her) but she'd also push him away as well.

Fine, I'll Hit On Other Girls

I start flirting with plenty of other girls, but for some reason, I'm having a hard time making a move. I pussy out with escalating with them, not sure why... (doesn't help oneitis is standing close, making me lose my nerve), but finally, I decide I should move away from her.

Girl Bumps Into Me, The Obvious Response? Makeout

This girl bumps into me, and she start apologizing a lot... I at first tell her it's ok, but then I realized I should tease her a bit with it. I say "actually, no it's NOT ok!!! I'm never going to survive now. How are you going to make it up to me?"

She then asks me "well, are you single?"

I tell her I am, and then we proceed to makeout. Score!

I make out with her a bit, exchange phone #s, and finally we part ways.

I Needed The Validation

Even if the random makeout meant nothing... I needed it. Say what you want about my inner game sucking, but at that particular moment, I needed nothing more than some form of female validation to let me know that yes, I am a sexual being, and yes, I am attractive. I hate to admit I needed the validation, but it's true.

Aftermath And I Think It's Time To Cut Her Out Of My Life

The girl I originally came with comes back with me in the car, but texts the other guy the entire time. I call her out, and she's just drunk texting away.

I get to outside her house, and I decide fuck it, and I go in 90% of the way for a kiss, and she doesn't go that last 10%. It's almost like she stops to think about it, and then she keeps her face close to mine, and then says "I'm sorry I'm so annoying when drunk", kisses me on the cheek, and leaves.

Fuck this, I don't need this additional stress in my life, so I think I'm going to try to cut her out of my life for the most part. Easier said than done.

On the plus side, the girl I made out with texted me and thanked me for being so awesome, and we should make out again sometime soon.

TL;DR Go out with my oneitis... she gets all flirty and a quick kiss with another guy. I decide to make out with other girls. I feel a little down right now, but fuck it, what can you do?