I'll be brief. I'm 33 now. I've been reading about game since I was 28. In 5 years I've done zero approaches. I know that's the top mistake. I know all the logic and reasoning and strategies and techniques behind successful game and how to practice. But I don't.

I'll admit I'm miserable. I have never once in my life been with a girl I'm attracted to. I've had a number of girlfriends in my life, but none of them have been even close to what I'm attracted to, with the exception of one, a very short relationship, and only by her face, not her body.

It's pretty sad to realize I don't even know what it's like to be attracted to someone. I'm dead inside. Just aging... existing. I use all sorts of reasons to justify my inaction. I have no career. No money. Trying to do something new in life that makes me happy, not just makes me money. These are good things, but I know that a broke jobless and homeless guy can still get laid at the girl's house if he's just presentable, charming and has game.

I feel miserable because I suck at building rapport, connecting with people, or making friends in general. This isn't just about game. This is about just having fun in life.

I know what you all are going to say. Go out and approach. Do it 10 times a day, keep a journal, etc. etc.

But I don't know how to fix me. I don't know what'll create the motivation and desire to go out there and do it. When will the pain of inaction finally be too much to bear, and force me to act? Another year? Another 5 years?

Maybe I need people to work with and feel accountable to. To be friendly and competitive with. I've always done everything in life alone.

I don't even like game. I hate routines. I just want to be spontaneous and original. Improvised. Creative. I have lots of great qualities. I'm not even that bad looking, above average actually, and I'm in good shape. Pretty buff actually, when I work at it.

But I'm like kryptonite to women. No girl in my entire life has even approached me. Ever. Not once.

I'm only attracted to one out of a thousand girls. I'm extremely picky. And when I see one I like I just shut down. I walk the other way.

I am in Austin, TX and starting a new chapter in my life. I need to conquer this fear. To come to life. I want to know what it's like to be attracted to a girl.