I put a lot of effort into maintaining my looks from dieting to exercising, to using sunblock moisturizing, finding trendy but good looking styles cuts and shaves I even do facial exercises, and voice exercises, etc.

Today I was having a conversation with this girl just warming up. She was an HB8 with an HB9 friend and for some reason I was fucking stupid. I usually have awesome conversations, but at that moment I was just dumb (literally at moments). Regardless she just stood there expectantly with a smile, and even asked me to dance.

All I could think about was how I wouldn't want to be talking to me right now, I'm being retarded. especially since this girl was getting approached all night. Could she be hanging around just because of how I look?

This made me super fucking depressed. I wished to Yallahwehjebus she would have just blown me out. Here I am thinking I am getting really good with women, but maybe, It's not what I am saying, but just a part of me that will fade over time that is attracting them.

I know for a fact that people who aren't good looking can score 10's every night, so I am going to grow a fat beard and dress in loose ugly clothing for the next few weeks/months, practicing the game the way it should be played:

HARD MODE...