All my life I was shy and awkward and only had a good connection with my long time friends. To make it worse I kept telling myself self-fulfilling prophecies like ' I'm an introvert', 'I'm shy', 'I just can't do it, I'm awkward'. On top of that I spent most of my youth in a LTR and after that was really depressed for a long time and felt so bad it took me a very long time to process what people were saying to me. As a result I answered very slow and was so in my own head that I began combining and messing up words. It was bad.

Thanks to working on myself very hard, conversation threading and everything else Seddit has taught me I can finally connect with people.

Last week I had a party where I knew a load of people and had an awesome conversation with a lot of them, up to the point where it became a meme to my friends: 'Oh look at Mr. Popular talking again'.

I just came back from a second hand store where I buy my literature and movies. One of the DVD's I bought was Casino and the guy happened to be a mob movie enthousiast too. We had a very nice conversation about mob movies. It left me walking home happy.

It's not the only thing. I'm finally connecting with my mother. I can shoot the shit with anybody anywhere. I still get too serious when talking to women sometimes, but I'm progressing fast.

As a result I think I'm finally ready to do some pick up. Ladies have been throwing themself at me for some months now, but just now I feel ready to act upon it. Not that I haven't been talking to them and touching them, but I know I can do much better! It's a shame and very dishonest that I'm not flirting with them as much as I should be. They like me, I like them.

Yesterday I got a number from a girl on Tinder. She didn't mind me turning the conversation sexual and reprociated. I want to set up a date with her tomorrow. Only problem is I just got a new job and am broke as a hobo at the moment...

Oh, well. I'm a happy man.