okay im gonna keep it simple as possible, cuz i suck at this. lets go:
i am a big fan of rsd julien. i really like his style, he says/does most random shit and doesnt care about outcome.
few days ago something clicked in my head and i was like "fuck i want to be like that guy".
went out, had so much fucking fun, had so many great conversations with girls, dunno how but everything i said was like comedy gold.
i said everything that came into my mind. 0 self doubt, 0 overthinking. nothing. just said. i said everything that seemed funny to me. everything. like i didnt give a fuck. if its funny to me, then im gonna say it. and it was all working for somehow, so many great conversations. (and i was sober). like i could literally talk about coffee cups and get into orgy.
now, today, i feel like shit. i just cant snap back into right mindset. im really serious, self doubting, overthinking, really inside my head. everything is holding me back.
like i dont even want to try to talk with someone, because i feel like im not enough at the moment.
im not outcome independent at all! im so fucking serious right now, i could suck a fucking dick to get it back.
wat do?
(i've been meditating for 2 weeks, love it and really has helped me, but seems like its not enough) sorry for shitty english.
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