Today its Australia day. I got a ticket to this meetup group thing at a bar where I knew no one except the organiser. I'd say I've spent almost a year not going out due to anxiety, random illnesses and whatever other excuses. Anyway I just said fuck it, even if its awkward, whatever happens will be better than the alternative, staying home.

So I got talking to some random drunk girls in the line. Took a photo for them. After getting in there was another line for the free food. After getting that they were still nearby. Sat next to them and said something like 'I'm gonna chill with you guys for a bit'. The girl on the end said 'OK'. None of them were that interested but the end girl tried to ask a few random small talk questions. Not too bad. I excused myself and went to the bar inside after I finished my food. Shit, now what?

I bought a beer. Turned around, a guy was sitting there peering into his phone at a table. I sat down and said wassup. He mumbled something and went back to his phone.

I was a bit stuck now. Everyone else was a massive group of presumably existing friends, a lot of them just girls. Above my current scope maybe. I started to become a phone-peerer myself.

Then I said fuck it. "Cmon man, not getting into it?" I gestured my beer at the phone peering guy. He smiled and came alive a bit. "Not yet man, waiting for my friends but they can't find me". The ice was broken. We had a bit of a chat, he was French, talked a bit about his time in Australia, work, etc. His friends came back not long after and they were almost all European girls except 1 canadian. 1 fairly cringey beta guy.

Long story short, they loved me for whatever reason, so we hung out there for hours shooting the shit, meeting others who came and went. The hottest canadian girl seemed to make a lot of eye contact with me and added me on fb within 30 mins. She had a boyfriend overseas (all foreign girls here seem to have that story).

We stayed out till late and watched the fireworks then parted ways

So yeah, I've broken the 'friends' barrier and also got invited to the hottest girl's going away party in a month.

Not too bad for a day where I for thought I'd probably manage to talk to no one then awkwardly go home after 45 minutes.

P.s. do nofap, I'm sure that's responsible for me not being a complete cringe-lord any more.