When I started it, everything was exciting. I came from extreme social anxiety. So even asking time from a stranger was exciting. Getting into state was easy, adrenaline would kick in so much faster. Then had a bunch of successes, I'd feel really good about myself. Was feeling like I was getting confident. Then I had a girlfriend for about 8 months. Once that was over, I had a bit of trouble getting back in. I understood that could be normal as I was out of practice.

But I realised when I actually did the exercises, I didn't feel like myself. I approached many girls and got rejected many times on many days. Of course life has changed now and I get a few good days where things happen with some girl when things go right and it feels good. But it doesn't feel like I am able to attract the women I want. It feels like settling.

Back then, I would dance like a retard in public, which usually would get me into state and then pickup was amazing. But now when I do that, the state is very temporary and disappears within no time. Things around me affect me. Society affects me.

Deep down, I had this question. Why didn't the lessons stick to me? Did I actually transform myself or was I just lying to myself?

I have memories of great nights and some amazing experiences. Now when I look at them, I am not able to do the same thing again. I feel like someone else did it and it wasn't me. Like its a memory of a different person.

I need advice, is this normal? Experienced guys please tell me if there was a phase in your life when this happened.