Half a year after models. I went from being the really nerd guy who never talks with girls, To having plenty of girlfriends( not romance) through my job. I started meditating, reading ton of books, martial arts, lifting, guitar playing, warching classsic movies and msuic and language learning and I'm feeling awesome.

But my sexual life so far was a disaster, got rejected by 3 girls from my job, had a lesbian and a girl that dosent look so great fall in love with me, but since I never even got to first Base I want to keep it for someone special. Currently I'm lacking guy friends and have no idea where to find cool guys, even though I feel I can befriend them I just can't find them. I feel like my charisma game is pretty good, I can maintain a good conversation 1 on 1 asking the right questions etc. But currently I'm feeling like I'm still very ashamed of my sexsuality and that hinders me.

I was very intrigued by red pill because of the whole tips and ways on how to help man express themsleves, be so free to get laid etc. Yet it's way way too mysgonists, when I feel woman are equal.

So if anyone was ever in this situation, or have any idea where to go from here I'm all ears