It really freaks me out when a girl treats me as her equal or takes me seriously.

Being on this subreddit, I've naturally been laughed at, mocked and ridiculed by many girls. Just like most of you guys.

My goal in life is to "win" one of these "better" girls over and prove my worth to her.

But all the girls I've been with have taken me seriously, liked me, even desired me... which is like really strange and off-putting. Like what kind of girl has no standards like that?

Like right now, probably like many of you, I can't even be considered a proper human. I'm an excuse of a human being, full of shame and disgust. Who could ever like that?

I want to gain worth by proving that I'm good enough to a high quality girl, not pick up girls even below me... I want to grow and become valuable, not stay in the gutter.

Do you also experience this or have you succeeded with proving your worth to one of these better girls?