A lot of people on here say, "Learn to not give a fuck" and this can be helpful if the problem is truly small or insignificant. But, not giving a fuck doesn't change the fabric of reality. Some things, you have to acknowledge or it will be forced to be acknowledged.

Most women work hard to look good, to act a specific way, to dress a specific way, to seem in some way good to their friends or an attractive dude. The best way I can put this, from what I've seen, is like they are studying for a degree and building a resume, the resume is their worth and the job in question is a 8/10+ guy. Because of this, I feel like, as someone who isn't as attractive, it is like someone offering a person with a bachelors degree in culinary arts a job at McDonalds. It is an insult and they will see it as such, although at worst you might get a go away. But at worst you waste your time and gain nothing.

Now the issue I see myself as a predator. I feel like a predator. I can't get a girl so I jerk off to their facebook pics and watch mountains of porn. It is a shame, but I feel like due to the genetics and upbringing I have(being awkward, unfunny and generally giving off a creepy vibe), and the science and mountain of evidence backing it up, I am basically forced to be a creep to try to fill the empty emotional void in my life. I hate it, but I see no way of fixing it. I am afraid of what I might do in the future, and constantly consider ending my life because I can't get help for it.

How to I begin fixing myself? How do I get out of this mindset? How can I see that all this shit is wrong if it is? If it isn't why are 80% of us here?