I’m an older virgin (25). I haven’t been intimate with a girl in about 4 years since my last relationship ended. Holy fuck as long as my time in fucking high school. Oh god...

Anyways I’ve been in relationships had a lot of oral sex but thanks to anxiety and irrational fears of sex possibly originating from my parents and maybe religion I’m still technically a virgin.

Sex and getting back into a relationship or anything like that seems so fucking distant. Like it will never happen again. I question if sex even feels good or why it would feel good. That’s how far from reality I am in this case. I feel like I want to have sex but I don’t want it badly enough. Like now I’m used to where I am and for the foreseeable future this is where I’m going to stay.