Where do I start, my wife and I have been married for almost 7 years but we've been together almost 13, today after coming home from the store, she was already completely wasted, but she seemed happy, until she grabbed my gun of my hip and started flailing it, after I disarmed her she felt bad, and then decided to get her gun and start flailing that around, which I had to disarm from her several times, she then calls her boss who I found out recently she's been talking to sexually, she's cheated several times and I've taken her back, I know stupid but she's my world and mother to our two children and her son from the relationship I took her out of, so I wasn't surprised (we actually started from today working all around my bad) when she did it, anyways I'm pretty shit at showing my emotions and never made noise during sex,(child hood trauma from hearing my mom have sex I think) well recently she expressed her need for noise so I started dirty talking her threw text and being way more kinky with her, which I actually enjoyed, but made her feel like a whore/meat, when I found out about the boss, I had a realization I was an idiot most of the time, not enjoying the moments and always leaving places we went quickly resulted in her not wanting to go and do, (I hope this makes sense as its all over the place) so lately we have been arguing and fighting, today since she was suicidal acting i tokd her to call him to get her, so i can leave i didnt trust her to be alone, and i would have made it worse, so shes been gone, i took the kids because she was drunk and i dont want my kids around any new dudes so quickly, hes put her into a hotel and she tried saying she was getting the kids which i said no see um here, they should not be up rooted, now divorce seem highly likely, boss man has several businesses and lots of money that hes used to spoil her as shes said, offered cars house everything, im a stay at home dad so i can't afford anything, I think I'ma get fucked over, oh well we did agree we should uproot the kids until she's settled or we figure out wtf we're doing, so I needed to vent and get advice and support i have no friends she fucked um all basically I know I'm better off without her but never wanted my kids to go threw this, and i do love her and believe in til death do us part and working threw anything but i dont think she is after today, luckily its that time of the month so hopefully nothing will go down tonight and she can figure out what she wants shes been referencing the note book saying shes in love with me but sick of being broke, my fingers hurt thanks