Hey everyone. I'm currently working through therapy on this, but I did want to hear some opinions from you all.

For context; I've recently hit 30 and my girlfriend of 9 years has discovered I had been cheating on her (mostly sexting some other women, with two occurrences of nearly having sex in person). We've been working through it for the past 3 weeks, and I'm very proud of both our reactions to this traumatic event. I've spent most of this time searching my history and analysing myself to try and understand why, and now I'm making plans to correct these insecurities.

I've always struggled with body image, as a tall but skinny guy, I've had many occasions where I felt inferior and shamed. This has lead me to be highly motivated to workout and gain muscle, but as my natural weight is so low, it takes a lot of time and effort for me to feel even average.

My findings are that both times I was partaking in this Infidelity were actually the times where I felt most happy with my body. What do you think about this correlation? What would be some things to explore so I can address my insecurity but not encourage any toxic behavior?

Thanks all