I’ve been handsome for my whole life. 6’2. Bilingual. Got in a new country with a better quality of life. Have a stable job. Live alone. Dress well. Smell fantastically. Charismatic. But I’m trying to kill my old narcissistic traits when all of my life I was used to just get attention from women, thirst them out and get off of their suffering. Without advancing any further at all. Any further than their attention, looks, compliments and sexual hints. I got into the game 3 weeks ago. I have a great potential. But I dont know how to kill off my ego. Its afraid of losing the status quo. And I keep telling myself that I truly dont give a shit if I get rejected a thousand times. But my ego still fucks me up each time and dictates to me. I will just give you some recent examples. Please evaluate me. I need to vent off. I go out every day for 2 hours and meet around 3-5 targets. On Saturdays I go out for 5-7 hours. I am not turning around. I am going out until I’ve become a real man. Brave and proud of myself. A hunter.

In the beginning of this week, I self rejected 2 times maybe. But around jan 16th I got bolder and more hungry. Just constant beast mode. Scouted in the mall twice. Always looking to score. Self rejected against two couples, bc I was looking for”lone wolves” like it is advised on the fs101. Now I understand I don’t give a fuck and will aproach couples anyway.

Jan 17 Two self rejections. 1st was when I was listening to music and tying the shoe laces. I looked up after having tied them and saw that there is a target. Didn’t click right away that she’s sexy or not. So I go forward towards her and light heartedly decide to change the music. I decide that I ll have time to prepare anyway. Meaning I wasted some time which I shoulda spent mapping her out and getting turned on sexually. At the end, I look up at her when we re 10m apart and I realize its too late. I cant decide if Im scared or turned on. So I walk past her with my eyes locked on her constantly until I ve passed her. Lesson: no music until 1st approach during session or turning it off as soon as a potential target is spotted. No doing anything after spotting her but getting turned on and fantasizing. From the distance. 2nd was when I saw a target from afar and she clicked quickly. I locked in on her and was approaching. I was getting turned on. Then i noticed two of her girlfriends. That puzzled me bc at that moment we were 15m apart. I wasnt prepared so I self rejected. Lesson: open a group even if unsure of the structure, convo flow. Make the ho say no. Imprompt. Bite. Stop shitting your pants and fleeing. You arent a maniac for approaching so DO IT.

Jan 18 2 self rejections. Didnt wanna turn around and approach bc found out shes pretty only when faced w her in 1m proximity. From the distance she seemed like a boring 40 yo bc of her big woolen coat Lesson: turn around and call them even if you ve passed them Saw one and was willing to do it but got scared that the guy sitting 5 m from there could hear us Lesson: do it once and the fear of your ego getting hurt will evaporate.

Jan 19 Two self rejections I was out for 20 mins when I saw her heading my way and I just fumbled/froze up, when I was eyeing her from the distance, I got shy of the fact that I had car headlights flashing in my face so that the target could see my lit face that is why I fumbled and just kept staring until we parted ways. She was coquette and sexy, I wish she had deemed me a beta simp. Lesson: Just do it. Fear of getting my ego hurt I saw a hottie at a corn stand at the mall. I passed her once. Then 20 mins later I passed her again. No excuse. Clean fear. Lesson: Just do it. Fear of getting my ego hurt Takeaway is this - I aint getting more than 2 targets. Each day. In this town. Which means I have no room for chickening out and wiggling. If I take all the shots, I might have a solid 50+ each month. And, statistically, it may mean a unique lay each month. What are you choosing!?

Jan 20 Self rejs: - A target with a friend was heading my way. I peeped her and got a green light from my pp. and a stare from her. Then I simply walked by. Lesson: kill your old self. - I spotted a hottie at superfarm. She was checking out a lipstick stand. I walked past her twice behind her back. On my lame third return I noticed she was gone. Later I bumped into her at h&m. I was heading towards her HEAD ON. She looked at me with a warm suprise. As soon as I was near her.. I walked by. LESSON: kill your old self. - you were approaching her and then decided she’s “too ugly for you” when you coulda given it a try. She wasnt ugly. It was just an excuse for your lame ego. Lesson: kill your old self