I can finally say that I’ve made it. Unfortunately, I got divorced pretty young (30). But, I’m seeing now that it was the best case scenario for that relationship. My ex wife checked out emotionally pretty early in the relationship, and I tried so much to keep the spark alive. But as many of you know, when someone checks out emotionally, intimacy soon follows. So, as a healthy young man with needs, I turned to porn. Now I know that wasn’t the right move, but after trying so hard to keep her interested, planning dates, carrying most of the labor at home while working full time, etc, I needed an outlet. I didn’t feel appreciated or loved. But then it all boiled over, she found out about the porn use and then the physical abuse started. That went on for a few months before I finally had enough of it. The promises of “I’ll never do that again” and “I’ll change” always fell flat.

I finally had enough one night, and long story short, I left in the middle of the night. It was an absolute shit show. She took my phone, tried to to tackle me in front of my neighbor when he let me borrow his to call my parents, and she threatened to call the cops on me for trying to get my things. She would always threaten me with calling the cops when she was abusing me, even though I never laid a hand on her.

I’ve been free for a while now, the divorce dragged on because she was greedy, but it’s been over for a while. I’ve gone to therapy to make sure the trauma from the past isn’t drug into any future relationships, and I tell you what. I feel the best I’ve ever been. I’m young, in the best shape of my life, and have an incredible career. I hope you guys in the trenches can get to the light at the end of the tunnel.