I guess this is more of getting some of whats on mind down and out there, letting some pressure off more than asking for input.

I posted recently asking about if I'm being greedy on a settlement figure and here I am again on a much more important note.

I am in pain, deep in my very core I hurt due to what I've done and what I've lost.

My wife and I have been married since 2021 and together 4 years before that.

We had a lot of stress with having to move and some pretty tough discussions about money late 2024.

Early 2025, I thought I was falling out of love and pretty much for a year we have gone back and forth, trying to sort things.

She has tried so hard to make things work, giving me time to work on myself, organising things to do and doing all she can to save our marriage.

It finally got to much for her and very understandably she asked about getting a divorce, she is spent and I dont blame her.

I have realised all too late what I've done and what I'm now going to lose (paperwork is all going through)

I have told her how much I love her, how I'm sorry for what I've done and for taking so long to sort myself out, but the damage is done. I have pushed away the person who had loved and cared for me so much and I dont know how to deal with that.

How do you begin to process hurting someone like that? The emotional damage i caused

How do you deal with the fact the future you could have had together is gone?

Im loosing my wife and my best friend, and I dont know how to process and deal with that.

I write this just sat on my old bed, in my family home as I cry, because thats all I feel I have left in me right now.

Fuck