My divorce was finalized in early April. Married 10 years. Divorce took over a year. I didn’t want the divorce. I wanted to work on it, do counseling. But she didn’t want to. And all throughout the divorce process I kept hoping she would reconsider up to the very end but she didn’t. I had to move out into my parent’s house. She has the house. I haven’t been to my house in over a year. I haven’t seen my other dog in 7 months. I had my other dog with me for sometime but now they live there. Her friend group cut me off. She cut me off. She’s suppose to help with shared bills but she just can’t really do it. I assume she’s having financial problems which is okay if she would just talk to me. But she won’t talk to me. Never invites me over to see the dogs. She said she did want to be friends but she gave no indication. I don’t think she is dating anyone. I tried. I can’t find anyone that lasts on dating apps but even if they did I honestly feel a little weird if it gets serious. Maybe I have lingering feelings, or I just want the company without going too far. We were together for 13 years. And I just do not understand. I’m still struggling deep inside. But I have no idea how she is. I get absolutely nothing. I suppose she completely moved on but those 13 years together were good. And it could have been worked through. But she wanted to quit. And now she’s like a stranger. And I never got closure. Just shut out. And I know I didn’t deserve it. I miss her. But there’s nothing I can do. I might delete this. But I needed to get it out.