I was in my first “relationship” before swallowing the pill. Everything was so great I couldn’t see why I didn’t do this before. It felt like such a great experience like nothing I’ve experienced before.

This led me to suffering from the dreaded oneitis. I was scared to lose her, so much so I asked her to be my gf and she said she wasn’t ready so I basically made her commit to exclusivity. Yes, being exclusive without her actually being my girlfriend

After the honeymoon period (4/5 months) my girl stopped wearing make up/getting dressed up to see me, got comfortable denying sex, became unappreciative of my doings.

I was couldn’t figure out why. I’m sending her sweet good morning texts, seeing her multiple times a week, buying little gifts, complimenting her. Everything a girl likes right? Wrong

I stumbled on to TRP a month ago. After swallowing the pill, my world opened up but my emotional attachment and attraction for this girl dropped immensely.

Fast forward, I broke up with her last night after she was deceitful about going to get drinks with a guy who wanted to fuck her. She said they were just friends and when he tried to kiss her she said they shouldn’t talk anymore.

I checked her phone and they were still texting like nothing happened, or something happened.

I knew it would happen. After all, she cheated on her previous LTR of 3 years with me. But I figured that was because we had a special connection like she always said.

She comes off as this sweet hearted, innocent girl. But on the inside an attention whore, manipulative, dishonest slut.

After seeing these texts I was so numb, so cold. She noticed I went totally cold. She tried hugging me, holding my hand, saying how much she cared about me, saying how I could tell her about anything, that I could trust her. It made it even worse as I couldn’t believe a word she said anymore.

She wouldn’t leave so I made her. I walked her to her car and said my goodbyes.

I feel nothing, just lied to and betrayed.

Numb.