i really need help, i improved myself a lot over the last year, missed a lot of chances to lose my virginity but never gave it much interest, 3 weeks ago I was at the top, I have a lot of friends, I got style, nice haircut, getting gainz, got on the college course I wanted, everything is fine but one thing, kissing a girl for the first time at 21 years old.

Backstory:

I met this chick 3 months ago, we are project buddies and we got along fine, a month ago I decided to go for her because why not, shes hot, shes nerdy, shes my type.

We got along perfectly, she does everything I do, same interests bla bla, she says she never opened herself up to someone like that and we had some pretty deep talks (the ones you do with the bros), she is extremely shy and has anxiety so she socially is null

We spent at least 2 weeks going out everyday (college) grabbing lunch and doing random shit for laughs. She went to my room for to watch netflix 3 times 2 weeks ago, guess what, those 3 times I didnt escalate for SHIT, like 0, null, nada...

After that everything was the same way and then we went out for a 'big' date, outside of college for a whole day and night we drove around big malls and took the subway to random places, we had fun. At the end I drove her home she fucking stood 30 minutes in my car giving kissable IOIs, I JUST COULDNT DO IT, ITS LIKE IM AFRAID OF SUCCEEDING, MY HEAD CLICKS AND IM LIKE THIS IS IT AND THEN I DONT DO SHIT!!

after that I cancelled a lunch we had planned 2 days after, to which she didnt say nothing, then 2 days after that I called her to set up another date, she didnt answer and I didnt sent a text or anything I just backed off. 4 days later she texts me a big ass double text explaining that she was feeling down and didnt want to do shit and had a anxiety attack also (honestly it checks out cause she deleted her whatsapp and ig pics at the time)

This was sunday, this week we got together wednesday and friday, both days we chilled as we did previously, did random shit again and she went home (she catches the train everyday)

'Question': Where do I wanna go with this? I didnt k-close her on coutless shots I had, I know she 'likes' me, we both know we got something between us but im shy af, shes shy af we just kinda waiting on me to get some balls. According to TRP, after I fuck up once shes a goner but she is still always here, im friendzoning myself and its hurting me.

After I dont make a move and she leaves I get filled with regret to the point where I almost cry honestly, why am I such a pussy? Why cant I just go for it??? Why??? When im with her im chill and just like "ah whatever, if it happens it happens" but after she goes away I get really depressed and mad on why I cant escalate...

After the 'big' date fuck up I kinda was thinking welp I lost this gal, gj potatowatt, fucking gj. But she keeps hanging out with me, and just the last time we were together we were talking and I kinda gave her a long stare into her eyes and she looked down and shyly (is this a word?) said "dont look at me like that", I mean I just at this point....

My friends all call me retarded and pussy, telling me to just do it. TRP tells me to just do it, but I dont. Its like im waiting on her to appear with another guy so I can go like "See Potatowatt? I told you it wouldnt work out. Now pat yourself in the back for trying and go to sleep"......

Im thinking about just the next time we are together to just take her to one of the spots college has that are more isolated, sit on a bench and just go for it, at least this way I dont die of regret ffs, what do you guys have to say?