I’m 16 and pretty fit. I worked out and got a decent body (6 pack and stuff). But I got gynecomastia around a year and some back. My nipples are so puffy and stick out. It’s really terrible. I can’t even walk with my shoulders back or else they poke out. I can’t take my shirt off without making them completely hard and my summer is ruined. My life is ruined. Everyday I wake up and I would just rather stay in bed. I worked out for a solid 3 months during quarantine but now have Zero motivation in anything.

During middle school and early highschool I would always say to my self “junior year”; as in I’m gonna hit a growth spurt and get girls. But right as I get older and get that growth spurt this happens. If I didn’t have this issue I would love myself and my life. I would have no problems. I just want my teen years to be fun. Swimming, beach, girl’s... nope. The things I liked previously I just say I don’t want to or don’t like anymore just to hide my nips. It’s the worst thing ever.

Constantly thinking about it. Literally every second of everyday it’s in the front of my mind. Trying to hide it every second. It cannot he healthy for my mind. I just don’t want to do anything. I don’t know what I want. Everyone wants to do things and I do to. I just have to say I dont want to. Activity’s is live to be doing I just don’t. Only ray of sunshine is playing guitar. I like doing that and I just sit in my room and play guitar

A girl recently said she likes me but I don’t know what to do. I have never had any experience with girls going into my senior year because once I started growing up and realizing I can get chicks, this happens. What happened when she wants to have sex, or just wants to touch my chest. This is literally the worst possible thing to happen to my. I just don’t want to do anything except sit in my room smoke weed and play guitar. Why me. Why. And this is the only place I’ve ever said anything about it. My relationship w my parents is dwindling because I’m so shady. Everything they want to do it’s like a “maybe” from me and then I just try to avoid it. Like boating. Fuck me dude I need a surgery.

I just want to have fun. Just want a fun teenage years and a fun life. I’m scraping the tip of the iceberg of my high school years. I know I can be hanging out more and doing tons of shit but I just don’t. If I wanted to I would be doing cool shit every day. Have my license, and I just could be living the life. I NEED a relationship w a girl. I’m so alone. I’ve started to prefer nothingness over doing stuff. Nothing sounds much better. I’d rather do shit alllll at night. No activity’s during the day. I’m just rambling. Fuck me. Sleeping is more ideal than waking up and just avoiding shit until night. My day is literally: avoid having to take my shirt off until night. Then sleep and repeat. My days are just time for me to wait until night. Advice please, even if you can’t relate at all. Plz.