EDIT: Being a bitch, unless mods want to nuke this, keeping it up to remind me to stop it

Big picture? I'm happy with where things are now (improving) main event is over and dealt with, I've handled my shit, abs are 'so close' right about now, and OI/GAF/frame are doing well...

I don't really haven an all encompassing story here, so it's a bunch of micro situations, stuff that I'm not quite confident on, or stuff that looking back may have missed something. Normally I just throw it into the owning your shit, but is more geared towards missteps I may not be seeing.

  1. started tracking her cycle. I used to kind of know intuitively anyways, but its pretty easy. during shark week currently, a lot of shit tests, lack of respect etc. Normally I laugh it off. /u/whinemoreplease advice, anything not in my frame is either amusing, funny, or intriguing. Simple things. case in point. we have a huge nightclub next door, they have a happy hour, causally went in to check it out. girls there were prettier, and better turnedout. total wet blanket, brother and I basically fogged it, entertained each other, she came around, but tried her best to keep as bitchy and grumpy as possible, and shifted back all day. Do I blame flo, or something else? general female matrix, probably felt like the wimpy guy at the bodybuilder gym, but thats not my problem

  2. push and pull. Haven't been too attracted to her since she's not providing value. figure best time to push and pull without expectation, because I don't even want it. constnatly questioning what my 'adgenda is'. little AA, but should be past questining the new frame. Massage when I was bored, 10 second kiss, ignore her when she's cunty, and cuddles when she's not.

  3. IUD replacement. Doc orders, no sex for a week (no want the babies), week prior to shark week. Now.. can't afford it (it actually isn't in the budget, but I don't mind a little debt, is important) now putting it off till next month. Not really an issue, just logistics, plus didn't give it to her for the week prior to... except once with a pullout and request for anal (normally not my thing, too tense, didn't work out, moving on) Not mad about it, but the idea of her agreeing not to fuck for an entire week, then backing out... getting my head around it being nothing, or a failed 'brad pitt' rule. Usually, I pull out my 'Master Seaman' voice and she does comply, but I'm getting a hard no on this one. Not the hill I want to die on, logic doesn't work, leading doesn't work...

  4. Normally, right in the middle of the period, she gets incredibly horny.. normally I can pivot this into the shower, or some handplay for her, and a blowie for me... just grumpy, starfish with affection, hence the #2

  5. Brother and friend been over for past week... Condo is small, so no private time for too much PDA, not sure how to keep up the sexual energy, since neither one of us are fans of PDA, and absolutely exhausted when we hit the bedroom... maybe it's just timining.

Either way... More details if you need, but just having problems processing this disparate details. Plus the fact I'm in full on 'retirement posting' mode means I've been looking out for #1 a lot, so I was expecting some pushback, and I'm OK with that. Is nice to do things for me on the regular.