I always got away with things that people don't get away with...

In my life, I always leeched off of girls. They paid the food bills, transportation, rent, everything.. I never paid for anything. I don't know why. Girls just pay for me. They buy me stuff and they always give me money whenever I tell them I need it. This is really weird.

I took advantage of the good looks I had.

Then one of the plates had an accident and died. And I feel bad and I found myself feeling bad about it whenever I got drunk. I feel like shit.

What could I do?

I respect all your opinions as long as they're reasonable. Thank you.. I'm sorry I'm a bit emotional right now. But I thank you all for even reading this. Thank you.