My bf claims to be purple pill which I can see that he is, he said he use to be blue pulled until he met me due to the simple fact I do have a history and I’m only 22 and have slept with more people then him and he’s 28, I wasn’t honest with him at the start about how many sexual partners I had been with as I am embarrassed but we’ve been together over a year now and have a 6 month old, he says he’s past it and just loves when I open up to him, but I can see that’s not true when I do be honest I can see the judgement and it hurts and then I feel like he starts to grill me I also have bpd so when he grills me I feel it’s more intense then what it usually is and I do go into lockdown as I’m uncomfortable, He says he wants honesty and me to open up and then I do it ends up into an argument, what does he really want? I can’t take back what I’ve done ( I’ve had more sexual partners then him but I’ve been more sexually experimental with my partner I would only do the basic on one night stand missionary or very seldom on top) please help.